poem (un-named)

what if i never loved you?
and i never felt your pain?
what if i never met you?
would i be half as insaine?

what if i never held you?
what if we never kissed?
and i never tasted your sin?
would i be ok without you?

it kills me not having you you here
because i never would have imagined myself without you
especially when i though you were the one.

i if i could pretend,
that you never exsisted?
would the pain cease?
would your ghost stop haunting me?
would i be able to sleep at night?
without dreams of us keeping me awake?

if i was honest with myself
i would tell you
seeing you two hurts me so much
and knowing your happy, hurts worse

holding on seems so pointless now
when you have her and you happy,
but i only hurt.
so i guess things for me are back to normal.

i knew it was just a matter of time
before my dream became merely a fanatsy
and my stupid insecurities
messed it all up.

my problem scares me
and i thought you would leave
if you only knew..
so i ended up driving myself crazy
then did something i now regret

can you tell me how to live without you?
because it i so hard for me.
when i am so used to being right by your side.
i wish i could jsut ask you for another chance.
so i can show you how much i really do love you.
so i can show you how much i miss you.
if you took me back i would never mess this up..
but it is all just my sweet fantasy..
that i keep held
deep inside my thoughts.

pot??

ok this is gonna be a touchy subject for all u pot heads. and i ain't talking about the ones who are like yea i do pot so Wat?? i am talking about the ones who act like they are sick just to get some medicinal marijuana. its like my eyes hurt so i needa smoke some pot. so lets move on to the crack heads. you think the only way to feel sane and to not be alone is to do this shit!! u know what?? thats the crack at work!! u know wat if u let that shit get to u and u let that be a temptation for you, its gonna come back around and bite you ni the ass.!! so stay away from the shit!!

♥breakable brittany♥

♥breakable brittany♥

i started using this name about a week ago when my bf and i broke up. since that happened i realized how fragile a heart really is.. and how any little thing can break it. but even though its done and over it, my heart is still breakable.. its fragile with many holes and i need someones band-aid to fix it. so i think i have found the one who will fix the bruises and marks and cuts on my heart. i really hope i dont get hurt again. idk how much more of all the b.s. i can take. but i guess this is enough of my pathetic rant for now i leave u in peices..
♥breakable brittany♥ aka ♫ little mi§§ fun §ize ♫

confusion!!???!!!???!!!???

ok i needa rant...
you know wat i dont get?? is when people fuckin get hung up on one person.. and they hate their lives jsut because they cant have wat they want.. and then they try to bring everyone else down with them.. its like the only way to bring their own pathetic lives up is to bring everyone around them down.. they go on a "poor poor pitiful me" spell and its like WTF?? get over it!! idk maybe its just me i notice annoying things about people and once i notice them it really gets on my nerves.. so idk... but thts it for now

♥breakable brittany♥